I’m trying so hard to better my life right now. I’m making lots of good decisions as of late, but I’m not looking for anyone to pat me on the back for it. What I’m hoping is that maybe something I do will help you, give you an idea that’ll bump you out of your own rut. Everyone who reads my blog is struggling with happiness and inner peace/balance. Here’s a little piece of classical music that reflects my determination to persevere:
To start off, I’ve come to the realization that I do have a new mantra: “Just keep trying.” I’m living by it at the moment and hope to make a permanent habit of doing so. I believe it’s a good one. No unrealistic expectations like my “hard work pays off” one. My dad gave me a great example of this mantra in action the other day. He told me these medical researchers had found some illness in human genes, so they started testing chemicals to treat and cure it. They tested 600,000 chemicals before they found the right one. 600,000 failures before one success. Just one. That’s nuts.
Also in the realm of trial-and-error, is one of my author friends who will now be my new ePublisher. Life threw him that proverbial curve ball, so he took a risk and dedicated all his energies to his writing. After tons of research, lots of testing with all things marketing, and writing five books and several short stories, he finally found success with his book Last of the Sages. That’s a monumental amount of effort right there, effort that inspires me to keep trying with my own writing, effort that’s made me realize how little I’ve tried to succeed. Even with a Master’s degree, it’s still embarrassing. Still, I believe every successful author starts with delusions of grandeur, has them decisively crushed, then discovers whether or not s/he has what it takes to keep trying. This separates those whose heart is truly in it from those who think writing is an easy way to make a few bucks.
I am finally free of a terrible ePublisher who’s been dragging me down. We’ll see if I ever get the few bucks in royalties he owes me. Yes, there’d be legal matters to attend to if he keeps shirking, but at this point I’m not going to lose any sleep over less than twenty bucks. My eBook is off shelves, so he can’t keep mooching off me anymore. Now I’m free to move forward with two publishers who’ve proven themselves competent and trustworthy. I’m excited and nervous. Just have to redo cover art and redo the title again. “Anticipation” isn’t cutting it. Yay, something to bang my head against my desk for. Titles are tough. Almost as annoying as writing synopses. Oh! I have to redo that, too. As evil as they, they’re crucial to drawing readers in.
Job hunting has begun in earnest. I’ve got ten jobs through LinkedIn lined up. O cover letters, how I loathe thee as much as synopses! But they are a necessary evil, a quick pitch to clue HR in as to why on earth you’d want a job with them. Got some neat jobs in the writing field I’m looking forward to be interviewed for. There was one job in Italy I would’ve loved, but I’m not fluent in Italian, so I was quite under-qualified. Oh, well. The one surrounding going on cruises to critique and market them sounded better anyway.
I’m halfway through critiquing the 19-year-old’s manuscript. I gave it to him as a Christmas present, even though I was worried about coming off too harsh and blunt. Turns out I wasn’t. My comments and questions gave him tons of ideas for a sorely-needed revision. It feels good to help him, even when his storytelling skills have me smacking my forehead. If I were in his place, I’d hope someone like me would come along and help, which is why I’m gladly throwing him a lifeline. The only hard part is that his story makes it clear that he’s been raised by conservative Roman Catholics, however I detach myself from my religious preferences when I critique his book. There are people out there who’ll love his Narnian parallels, so there’s no point in watering down the religious overtones in his story.
I’m a good 100 pages and 30k words into book three of my “Aigis” trilogy. I haven’t shared a single page yet with anyone. I will once I complete drafting part one.
This entry is a bit thin on substance. Right now I feel the need to keep you all on the same page before I get back to my internal journey, along with all stuff writerly. So much is going on, so many changes, so many pauses to take a deep breath and remind myself that everything will turn out okay. I’m still going back and forth between sleeping well or poorly. Right now I’m reading Richard Carlson’s Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff and It’s All Small Stuff to help give me ideas on how to keep my stress level low and optimize my personal efficiency.